Struggle/Difficulty

I decided to reread a little of Eclipse to refresh my memory a little bit and I came across a struggle that has been going on for a while.
"..."That should have been our first kiss. Better late than never." Against his chest, where he couldn't see, the tears welled up and spilled over" (Meyer 530).
This quote is right after Jacob kisses Bella for the second time. Bella has been struggling with her feelings for Jacob and her love for Edward. She knows that she is in love with Edward and always will be, but she also knows she loves Jacob. Bella has a hard time with her feelings. She struggles with how to handle her emotions. She knows that she can't live without Edward, but she has also come to realize that surviving without Jacob would be nearly impossible too. Her struggle is even more difficult because both Edward and Jacob say that Bella is their "soul mate" and both of them have proof. Bella knows that her struggle with her feelings will most likely never end, but she is trying to find a way to make the best out of the situation, which is hard when the two men she loves are enemies. It will be interesting to see how Bella handles this difficulty. Everyone handles their struggles in different ways. Some people take the difficulties head on, but others try to run away. It looks like Bella is stuck in between.

Meyer, Stephenie. Eclipse. New York: Little, Brown and Company, 2007.