Outside Reading Assignment #3

I am still reading New Moon by Stephanie Meyer (p.93-120).

"Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk" (Meyer 117). This quote symbolizes what went on in the chapter that I read. The chapter was about Bella and the following months after her beloved Edward left her. She has been very depressed and her father Charlie has become very concerned. He confronts her one morning and tells her that he would like to send her to live with her mom Renee because living in Forks reminds her to much of Edward. Bella refuses. She claims that it would mess everything up because it is her last semester in high school and she needs to finish it. The conversation ends with Bella storming out of the house and into a angry mood.
At school Bella decides that she will ask a girl from her class named Jessica if she wants to go to a movie. She hopes this will get Charlie off of her back about being depressed and not wanting to do anything. Jessica is quite surprised when Bella talks to her because they haven't talked since Bella and Edward starting going out, but she says yes anyway.
At the movie Bella has a hard time because it starts out with a boyfriend and girlfriend and she can't help but think of Edward. She has to leave several times throughout the movie, but finally it ends. The two girls then go to McDonald's for dinner. On their walk to the restaurant, Bella sees a group of older men outside a bar. She thinks she recognizes one of them from the previous year when she was almost killed. As she gets closer to the men, she feels like she should stop. As she inches closer she hears Edward's voice telling her to stop and go back to Jessica. Bella knows he is right, but she wants to hear his voice again, so she keeps going. She finally realizes that she needs to stop and so she goes back with Jessica.
The quote has a lot to do with this situation. Bella knows that when she hears or remembers Edward's voice it hurts her inside, but she is so terrified that she will forget if she doesn't remember it. Bella has a hard time with this and spends the rest of the night trying to think about what it would be like if she forgot something about Edward.